Out of the Rabbit Hole, or Fox Hole?
The last two weeks have been pretty crazy. We made it out for another trip (the picture captioning backlog is now epic, poor Kristin), but the bread of that vacation sandwich has been very difficult. We basically have the books closed now for the first time in the new system, and from the financial side things look really good. We have to get some people problems fixed, though.
You don’t have to look too hard to see the outpourings of a desire to come home. From the weird foot removal dreams (signifying perceived inability to move, according to Dr. Internet) to the sudden desire to clean out my desk just now, my mind is wrapping things up a lot sooner than the company is getting around to it.
I think feeling the project begin to unwind is a big part of all this. There is still work to be done, but it’s responding work rather than anticipatory work. I was enjoying the planning side of things, and I feel like any responding work I do is taking the opportunity to learn away from someone who will do it after I’m gone.
That’s a hard thing to communicate here once you get a measure of experience and knowledge. The role of ‘Trainee Fire Fighter’ does not exist; you go from ‘Idiot Who Can’t Extinguish Fires’ to ‘Expert on Fire Fighting’, and they’d rather use the Expert while he’s here and start over with an Idiot at the last possible moment.
We have a pretty exciting two months coming up, which eases a lot of this unease.